and I will finally let myself cry
I will let the tear drops streak from my eyes until I can feel the saltiness on my lips
for my heart is heavy
and the pain overwhelms me
I will finally let myself cry
so do not comfort me by telling me life is a process
or that the sky is big enough for everyone
because I do not care for a message
nor an epistle
I do not care for your warm disposition
so I will go to this party tonight
dance for as long as my heels can keep me, and with these people i do not like
I shall keep my glass full until I can no longer hold it up
and bury this LSD under my tongue
for I long for a realm of bright colors, to exit the monochrome my life has become
and so I will grieve
I will draw more despair from the regrets I claim to have forgotten
I will wallow in low spirits
and shatter this facade of a fortress I built
for I am just human, and frail, and helpless..
