Road trips. Arrows and signs pointing in the right direction. Landscapes and hills graced by the beautiful sunset with shrubs, trees and streetlights trying to keep up.
Life in the fast lane seems fun until you become that negative energy pulling everything back. But maybe it’s not you. Maybe it is your desire, because you know what is stronger than willpower? It is desire. On the outside you seem to be in control over your emotions but deep down, beneath all that facade is chaos. Self-denial gets the better of you; living life so you can be accepted by the majority.
But you would agree that those standards are ridiculous right? I mean who makes these rules? That is just another conceited individual hell-bent on pouring their beliefs on us. If I didn’t know any better, I’d say they have our best interests at heart but it really is just another means to stultify us.
And at the peak of nighttime, what you perceive as peace only troubles some. Narcissistic tendencies and paranoia erupt. It is a world of pandemonium [a curse] that only a select few do not experience.
But just before the candles burn out and before the faint shadow of that painting we adored together gets lost in the darkness, I will linger in this brief moment of fantasy. Moments that hold untainted truth and can only be extinguished by cold winds. So I shall try to rise above with this knowledge not guided by logic nor procedures; facts nor idealism, but by pure objectivity.
May the force be with you, xx
