the human urge to write my new year’s resolutions

*credit to @yung.nollywood for the featured image*

Ah. The end of the year again & the new year urge to create a to-do list, to create a plan. To be honest, that did not work out great for me in that I did not do all the things I penned in my list even when I told myself & tried to be intentional, so excuse me if I’m not very big on New Year’s resolutions. But I did work on a few off the list which gave me clarity – knowing that even if some things don’t work, some do. Kind of a glass-half-full, half-empty type of situation. So am I tempted to make another list this year? Maybe. & putting up this post is sort of an accountability note for me; in that 2, 4, or 6 months from now, I want to be able to look back & see how far I have come. I want to see that I am doing better than I did a year ago. & even if I do not accomplish all, at least I know I tried. In the end, growth is seen in being a better version of yourself – competing with yourself. Nothing else matters really.

One thing I want to give up is procrastination. I hate that it is not talked about often (like caffeine addiction). I have lost so much to this menace and I have been its slave. Imagine being a slave to a fancy word for laziness & fear. But then impulsivity is what I turn to which is great on most occasions but bad when it comes to the so-called spontaneity a.k.a living in the moment scam after checking my account balance the next day & thinking what. the. fuck. My dilemma. Don’t even get me started on overthinking. That is another 2/5 stars & I do not recommend it. However, trusting your gut feeling is not the same as overthinking – which is what I intend to be more inclined about in the new year. Omg, I’m making a list already, aren’t I?

Now, to get candid, realism is something that’s been on my mind you know. The ability to tell it like it is. I know things are not always what they seem, but sometimes, things are exactly the way they seem. That’s one hard pill I’ve had to swallow. & I hate pills. While we are on that topic, I would rather take injections to tablets.

So, new me over the old me. Like you, I am also a believer. You know, of the things that should up-change & redesign a system. Society’s construct is heavily influencing a good percentage of lives, lives that have refused to unlearn – for the simple reason that people, as much as they hate to admit it, do not at all open their minds to change. I mean, if we put an effort into actually changing the way we talk about it incessantly (& especially on social media omg), maybe the world will be a little less judgmental & habitable. Is that on my list? Maybe. Yes.

I get bored easily. It’s annoying. Does that mean I have a low attention span? You know what, don’t answer that. If you were wondering, I don’t have ADHD haha, as far as my diagnosis goes anyway. I guess that’s why I like doing lots of things, more so, I feel that I can be many things. So if you want to finish that sketch you’ve been ignoring for months & at the same time, learn that musical instrument – this is the sign you needed. Do it. I think we can all agree that time is a fickle goon so before it screws with you, show it that you are 2 steps ahead.

I won’t end this without talking about financial stability. Yes, I know money doesn’t buy happiness, it’s the root of all evil & blah blah but I beg you in the name of whatever you believe in, get money. The motivational speakers, artists & influential people who tell you all that crap about the ‘disadvantages’ of money already have it. & guess what? They only get richer. Well, except you are Jeff Bezos & do not get a prenup.
My bad, that’s actually a terrible example because I just read somewhere that the amazon CEO is still rich AF. 2nd richest in the world if we are talking statistics. Do you see my point?

In conclusion guys, it’s safe to say that I am shamelessly making another list for 2022. I tried to fight it but … you win some battles, & others, you succumb to the pressure.

Make that list. Buy that thing. Cut ties with your comfort zone, nothing grows there. Put in the work. Share that content. Hand in that application – the worse that can happen is getting a no. Breathe. Half the time, life is not that serious.

Here’s to smashing goals & living better 🥂 here’s to 2022 filled with possibilities. I believe in you.

✨happy new year fellas xx✨